Wow you have it so wrong it's out of even the same ballpark. I don't bemoan or resent you at all. Not even one tiny little bit. If you were making $100.00 per hour for what you do I'd say "good show" congratulations. I don't believe in Class warfare or envy. I'm not jealous of money, cars, jewelry, houses or the prestige you think comes with those things. And I wonder way more why people in my group are unhappy and complain much more than yours.
But see. From everything you write it still comes across to me like the only thing that can make you happy is making more
$$MONEY$$
There are a lot of things out there in this world that can make someone happy that have nothing to do with money. But if that's what YOU need I hope you can get the amount one day that get's you there.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_awAH-JJx1k